I’m not pushing anyone away. It is their choice if they’ll go or if they’ll stay.
But I’m giving you reasons why you shouldn’t stay.
- I’m a high tempered person. Yung tipong hindi ko napipigilang ang sarili ko, once anger have entered my system.
- I’m fat. Mataba ako. Matakaw ako. Tamad akong mag-diet.
- I suck at Math. Mahina ako sa numbers.
- I snore, especially when I’m tired. Humuhilik ako, who would want a girl who snores?
- I’m not flawless nor gorgeous. Hindi ako maganda, hindi makinis ang balat ko.
- I suck at gracefully eating in front of someone. Di ko mapigilan appetite ko. Mukha akong baboy kung kumain.
- I laugh out hard. Yung tipong may snort na kapag nasobrahan.
- I’m not girly or kikay. Minsan lang ako magsuot ng mga damit pambabae, minsan, sapilitan pa.
- I cuss. Nag-mumura. I swore. -_-
- I’m reckless. Minsan, gusto kong maramdaman na buhay ako. Kaya mahal na mahal ko ang fast-life. Kahit muntik na akong mamatay dahil dun.
- Sometimes, I’m melodramatic. Yung tipong di ko mapigilan ang sarili ko na magsalita, kahit wala namang pakealam yung pinagsasabihan ko.
- I fart. Kahit sa public places.
- I burp like a bull frog. Lalo na kapag uminom ng soda.
- I don’t eat vegetables. That’s why I’m weak.
- I have a different kind of taste than to those girls who were being loved by many. Kung mapapakinggan mo ang playlist ko, sasabihan mo kong tomboy. Hindi ko favorite ang pink. I don’t like teddies.
- I’m weak. Literally. Na pagbukas ng bote ng c2 hirap ako.
- I am no good at arts. Hindi ako marunong mag-drawing. So how can I make simple masterpiece if you wanted me too.
- I smoke. Naninigarilyo ako, kapag may problema, depressed o gustong kumawala sa reyalidad.
- I’m a sadist. Minsan, masyado akong manhid, na wala na akong pakealam sa nararamdaman ng iba.
- I don’t pay attention to my hair. Yung palaging bad-hair-day.
- I have too many piercing. 4 piercing on each ear.
- I don’t have a beautiful voice to enchant you.
There are tons of reasons why you shouldn’t stay here, putting up the efforts to know me better. But damn. How I wish you find a reason to stay.
All of the ones who found all of these, some went away, some pretended they didn’t liked me, some despised me, but no one stayed.
Will you still stay? Will you still care? Will you still talk to me? Will you still make me smile by cracking some jokes, that made me laugh without you knowing it? Will you still stay if I’m not perfect? Will you give up on me like others did?
You will. Would you?
Will you be my reason to climb up again in love? Will you be the one to make me believe that there is still forever in this moment, that there is still magic living in this condemned world? Will you be my mentor, who will aid me to learn all about the important things in this life that I am nearly erasing in my system?
You will. Would you?
Even if I’m not perfect as you will want your girl to be.
She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad. And that’s important.